This weekend had best be over soon.

I know it sounds weird, but i want to go back to college...i don't like this weekend.

The only brilliant thing about it is that i went to see New Moon yesterday with my mum and Natalie ( ). New Moon was awesome by the way XD

gah...i need my college

[edited part...this has turned into an essay]

I've found out a lot of things today, i've found out who i can trust, who i can tell nothing, or everything. Some people you meet will love you, some will hate you. Some people will always be there laugh with you, cry with you and tell you everything. Some people change, some people stay the same for life, and some people were just destined to be there for you...thank you everyone who has made me who i am, and loved me for it. (yes i wrote that on my facebook too but i'm going to elaborate on it) I've found out the people who mean the most to me, who mean nothing to me or are just a waste of space. Remember that saying "good friends will bail you out of jail, your best friend will be sat next to you saying damn we fucked up" i used to think it was a joke, i used to think all of my friends were there for me, that all of them would be sat next to me. A friend tells you things you don't want to hear, does thing that they know you don't have the guts to do yourself and is always there, but sometimes you lose a friend, and whilst you're doing that, your losing a part of you...If i was to give any of you advice right now (i know i'm not the right person to be giving it out) i would say: don't be stubborn when it comes to friends and arguments because one day you may wake up and realise the one person you need to talk to is the one person who will never be there for you, because you messed it up by saying something you really didn't mean or that they don't want to hear. I did that, i messed up a friendship that really shouldn't be called that, i lost a sister from me being so stupid and so stubborn, that one second of stubborness will cost you something so much, so irreplaceable that there really isn't any words for it.


Here's a few quotes that mean the world to me at the moment:

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same. ~Flavia Weedn


When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares. ~Henri Nouwen

The friend who holds your hand and says the wrong thing is made of dearer stuff than the one who stays away. ~Barbara Kingsolver

People change and forget to tell each other. ~Lillian Hellman

As fast as we became friends we come to notice how much faster we can lose each other...how much more friends you become friends with...even the ones you never think you will...Remember the good times we all have together because time and reality is moving fast and the reality is some of us will never see each other again and some will...but even though we'll all change we'll all remember the times we had together and all the times we said
best friend until the end.